im am confused as fuck.. and i dont know what to do anymore, i love being around you and i love what we have when we are together, but in the back of my mind i know its wrong and i know i shouldnt be doing what we do, but it feels so good to have you around, im so happy when were in each others company. i love the little things you do that you know will make me smile, but when you turn around and say "i love you" my heart hurts but bursts at the same time, but i dont know if you mean it or your just saying it. after every time i spend with you i want to burst into tears but then i wanna run after you and tell you that im sorry for everything and that i love you too. i dont say i love you too because im scared to tell you that because once those words come out of my mouth like they do yours, i will regret it and i will fall faster than ever, my heart has got a barrier around it and walls covering it so that it cannot get smashed into a million pieces by you. i want you so bad but i dont let myself think like that, what do i do? ill do anything for you, everyone knows it including you. but please dont use me to your advantage. i want this to work between us. i hope we can keep this. i love spending time with you :) you make my black and white world colourful.