when you feel something for someone, and you tell them, your trusting them, you giving them some bit of you that no one else has. if they tell you they feel the same then all of a sudden you heart feels like its floating and the world is on your side. but what happens when the day comes and you know its here, somethings wrong, things are different and then they tell you they just want to be "just friends" and your heart drops to your stomach and you feel sick, your not ready to feel this way yet, but you cant change whats happening as this is their choice and you cant change the way they feel. you pray and you hope to god they will turn around and say "just jokes" but really in the back of your head you know that they aren't going to say the words you want to hear. all you can do is go through your head on why? why are they doing this and what did I do wrong? and then they say "its me" and all you can still think of is "why?" and it just hurts, doesn't matter how long you've been with this person maybe a day or two, maybe a week, maybe even a month or year, but no matter how long its been your heart still has that pain, the pain where you know everything is going down the drain again. one moment things are soo good between you two, theres a smile painted on your face 24/7, you tell everyone, you text them all day, and you want to see them as much as you can to spend time with them cause you like their company. you love their hugs and their kisses are the sweetest thing to have, their voice is like a soundtrack to your ears, and their touch is indescribable. 
I thought that this could've been something, something that I have wanted for soo long, you showed me that you were there and you felt the same, we didn't have that much time but in that time i had memories with you. 
I was waiting for this day i was waiting for you to tell me you didn't want this anymore.. you just wanna be friends, for my heart to be let down again, and for things to change in the blink of an eye. i should know by now the routine of this,
friends with someone
like them
tell them
they like you back
you have a "thing"
then you either stay having a "thing" or go out.
but in the end they always say "just friends"
my heart has got used to this feeling now, its like a second nature and soon my heart wont be able to love any longer, because it cant trust anyone, you were something special to me and i wish that we had longer to try it out but i guess i can't change anything now, and I now have to let you go..