I feel rather stupid. Stupid for staying around for so many years while you walked all over me. While you had me wrapped around your little finger. While i would sit around waiting for you, you'd be out doing whatever the hell you pleased, while I would jump at every chance to spend with you when you would just be like "yeah. whatever." while I dropped all my plans for you. while I lost friends just to prove to you, you were the most important person in my life. While i would organise things to keep you happy. I feel used, played, cheated. Just because i was stupid enough to believe your lies, the words that came out of your mouth that i wanted to hear, its like you lead me along for all those years just to watch me fall, just to see my world crumble, to see my heart bleed for you, to see me in heartache and pain, its like you set this whole thing up, a beautiful plan made by you that you were successful in. I was stupid enough to believe "I love you."

it was the biggest lie I ever heard out of your mouth. 

my heart still hurts to this day to believe that you did this to me. I will never forget about you but when i remember you I will have this constant memory of you hurting me numerous of times over and over again, like you got pleasure out of seeing me so down, i was never good enough for you. you let me know that. I just hope that one a girl could love you like I could. because I can tell you now, no girl will EVER love you like I did. unconditionally, uncontrollably unthinkable of loving anyone else like i loved you. I tried to give you the world, I tried to share my world with you, but you threw it back in my face, after all that time, i now know what not to go for ever again, so thank you also for showing me how to pick out the heartless fucking assholes in this world, you have probably saved me from making the same mistake twice. Fuck you for hurting me. Thank you for making me a stronger, wiser person.